If only you knew....

If only you knew my faults,
Would you still call me Bishop?
If you knew my darkest secrets,
Would you still trust my council?
What if you knew that I don't always practice what I preached,
Would you still listen to my teaching?
If my inward battles were revealed and you got to see the me that only God knows,
Would you believe I knew Him?
We all know I'm not perfect, but some times I'm not even good,
So why do you look up to me?
If you knew my dirt,
Would you bury me in it?
This thing called life has me by the throat at times and I smile as if I'm not hurting.
What if you knew what I really thought of you,
Could you understand how I still smile in your face?
If only you knew the stuff I meditate on from time to time,
Would you still inquire of my thoughts?
What if I told you I was a hipocryt at times and that I live outside the scripture,
Would you undertand why still preach?
I don't dot every "I" nor cross every "T", sometimes perfection is not even a goal to me. I look for short cuts and take the easy way out.
I lust after things I should know nothing about.
Do you trust me?
Am I still this beacon of wisdom you want to draw from?
Am I still this great husband you look for guidance from?
What if you knew all of me,
Would you love me?
Would you judge me?
Would you embrace the the me that in all this feels guilty,
Or would you treat me as an infadel and banish me to sea?
What if you knew the whole me,
To you who would I be?